Andy would always have described me as being clumsy, but now I was definitely falling over more. Things were different. I felt that my right hand and left leg had started to deteriorate at the same time. It seemed unusual so I reverted back to making symptom lists and Googling ‘the reasons it is MND vs the reasons it isn’t’. My scientific brain just couldn’t switch off to the problem, trying to make sense of everything. How can you make sense of something that is so hard to diagnose and doesn’t always play by the rules?